Red Dill
New Member
I admit that I am Aredil.
I do not understand the rationale behind saying, "You can't blame me for trying."
I am the only one to blame for trying. No one forced me to try.
Nonetheless, I understand the sentiment. I believe it can be better expressed by saying something different, however, and I believe the distinction is truly important. Yes, you can and should blame me for trying.
However, I am glad I tried. It was worth my time and energy to try.
That said, however, it was not worth the time and energy of others. I apologize to moonlit009, Redfin, and Tetsujin in particular, since theirs was the time I wasted. I also apologize to the roleplaying group of Halcyon Days as a whole, who, regardless of whether they care or not, I did attempt to deceive. In the case of those whom I succeeded in deceiving, to you I apologize with greater feelings of guilt than the others. It is not a pleasant thing to be lied to, and I understand that my doing so will probably cause you negative feelings.
I wish to clarify that my attempts to circumvent my banishment from Halcyon Days (and, to a lesser extent which applies in spirit if not in technical validity, my banishment from Bleach Forums) were not perpetrated with the intention of trolling or causing grief. While I understand that they have likely accomplished that exact end result, that in doing so I have only further alienated myself, and that the end result is far more important than the sentiment behind my actions, I did not wish to reach that end result.
I realize that I might have attained a more satisfactory result by appealing to the leaders of the site, asking forgiveness, and hoping that a show of good faith would result in an additional chance. I will not say it would have been a second chance, because I believe I have already had several chances to prove myself and failed to do so. Additionally, I will not attempt to hide behind technicalities by saying that I was only banned from Bleach Forums and, therefore, should be allowed to attempt a fresh start here.
Manga Den is the spiritual successor to what this community lost when Bleach Forums became unstable and, eventually, unavailable. Being banned from the previous incarnation is effectively the same as being banned here.
The reasons for my banishment from Halcyon Days is public knowledge. Aside from the surface-level truth that I requested to be banned, I believe that it is well known and documented that I was an incessant cause of conflict and that I was a troll. If I had not been banned by my own request, I surely would have been banned for completely valid reasons at some later date. I was no better than others who had been banned. The reason for my being banned from Bleach Forums might be less known: I attempted to rejoin in much the same way I have just attempted here, by creating a sockpuppet account on Bleach Forums and submitting a wholly new character for review. As this was against the forums' rules, I was banned entirely from the forums.
That is my story.
I do not expect forgiveness, though I ask it, and I am fully willing to beg and shoulder any probationary burden deemed necessary if it means rejoining this community. However, I do not hold out hope. I understand that any relationships I might have had at one point have been broken, or at the very least strained past the point of any level of trust.
Again, this is entirely of my own doing and I am to blame.
I do apologize, sincerely, for the trouble I have caused.
With regret,
Aredil
I do not understand the rationale behind saying, "You can't blame me for trying."
I am the only one to blame for trying. No one forced me to try.
Nonetheless, I understand the sentiment. I believe it can be better expressed by saying something different, however, and I believe the distinction is truly important. Yes, you can and should blame me for trying.
However, I am glad I tried. It was worth my time and energy to try.
That said, however, it was not worth the time and energy of others. I apologize to moonlit009, Redfin, and Tetsujin in particular, since theirs was the time I wasted. I also apologize to the roleplaying group of Halcyon Days as a whole, who, regardless of whether they care or not, I did attempt to deceive. In the case of those whom I succeeded in deceiving, to you I apologize with greater feelings of guilt than the others. It is not a pleasant thing to be lied to, and I understand that my doing so will probably cause you negative feelings.
I wish to clarify that my attempts to circumvent my banishment from Halcyon Days (and, to a lesser extent which applies in spirit if not in technical validity, my banishment from Bleach Forums) were not perpetrated with the intention of trolling or causing grief. While I understand that they have likely accomplished that exact end result, that in doing so I have only further alienated myself, and that the end result is far more important than the sentiment behind my actions, I did not wish to reach that end result.
I realize that I might have attained a more satisfactory result by appealing to the leaders of the site, asking forgiveness, and hoping that a show of good faith would result in an additional chance. I will not say it would have been a second chance, because I believe I have already had several chances to prove myself and failed to do so. Additionally, I will not attempt to hide behind technicalities by saying that I was only banned from Bleach Forums and, therefore, should be allowed to attempt a fresh start here.
Manga Den is the spiritual successor to what this community lost when Bleach Forums became unstable and, eventually, unavailable. Being banned from the previous incarnation is effectively the same as being banned here.
The reasons for my banishment from Halcyon Days is public knowledge. Aside from the surface-level truth that I requested to be banned, I believe that it is well known and documented that I was an incessant cause of conflict and that I was a troll. If I had not been banned by my own request, I surely would have been banned for completely valid reasons at some later date. I was no better than others who had been banned. The reason for my being banned from Bleach Forums might be less known: I attempted to rejoin in much the same way I have just attempted here, by creating a sockpuppet account on Bleach Forums and submitting a wholly new character for review. As this was against the forums' rules, I was banned entirely from the forums.
That is my story.
I do not expect forgiveness, though I ask it, and I am fully willing to beg and shoulder any probationary burden deemed necessary if it means rejoining this community. However, I do not hold out hope. I understand that any relationships I might have had at one point have been broken, or at the very least strained past the point of any level of trust.
Again, this is entirely of my own doing and I am to blame.
I do apologize, sincerely, for the trouble I have caused.
With regret,
Aredil
